No more effort from me. Trying to organise to cat,ch up and you definately are not wanting to so why should i even bother. Oh wait im not ANYMORE. OVER IT. Just 30 days till i get out of this country onto paradise. Yes please.

























So much has happened. Its been awhile since i've last updated. Maybe because of Exams, Other commitments, Work and simply being lazy! But the time away from blogger ive realised ive grown. Im much stronger than i was before. I'm learning to accept the fact that things are just the way they are and i Just need to let go and move on because im wasting my time sticking around and trying to fit it when the other person doesnt put much effort in anymore.










Please tell me why i once thought that you were a very good friend to me. Until this day i thought so highly of you. I cant stress enough how sad i get every single day because of the people i miss and who i wish i could just be close to again. I hate those awkward hi and byes to friends who were once always there for you when you needed somebody to talk to. I know i cant rely on everyone for moral support and sometimes i need to just get through all my problems and worries myself. I'd like to see myself as strong and independent but its also nice to have a good person care about you every now and then. When 2 people stop putting effort in, thats where it all stops. The friendship you used to share no longer exists and once its stops its gone forever and the old you's will never be able to be mended.

I miss you. Everything about you, our long talks, our deep and meaningful conversations, the long laughs and the late nights that we used to have. Why cant it all be like that now? I miss that.... you grew up to fast and here i am still trying to steadily grow into an adolescent. I still envy your friendship even though we dont talk anymore. But i always seem to wonder do you ever stop to think about our old friendship? Friendship is the most important part of someones life. And me.. well my friendships with people kinda suck...